A letter to her

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I think I would notice your eyes first
not because they are different
but because they still believe
in things I had to bury
to keep moving

you would stand there
with your questions unbroken
holding time like it hadn’t yet learned
how to take

and I
I would hesitate
not out of shame
but out of the quiet terror
of being seen
by someone who still expects me
to become everything

would I tell you
how the world softens you
by first teaching you where it hurts

or would I let you keep
your unspent light
your reckless hope
that hasn’t yet learned 
the weight of gravity

maybe I would just sit beside you
no warnings
no apologies
and let the silence say
you were never wrong
for believing it could be beautiful

and I am still trying
to prove you right

* Just a letter to my younger self *

10 thoughts on “A letter to her”

  2. ‘I am still trying’ … it hits home, painfully, Jennifer, …if only we could talk to our younger selves, … but maybe not, … we are who we are through being strong enough to cope, …( sorry, my thoughts lead me back and forth!) …💙

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  4. You have proven her right. To be kind, empathetic, thoughtful, tender, loving, graceful, generous, and sweet when the world was cruel, callous, inconsiderate, harsh, cold, evil, selfish, and bitter to you, is all the evidence you need to know you have proven her right.
    Your younger self would be very proud of you. I know I am.

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    • This means so much to me. To just say thank you feels so inadequate but I needed to hear this. Sometimes, we are too hard on ourselves. That being said, I’m proud of you too, for your strength and commitment and for being the best person I know ❤️

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